Jar of Hearts

If you have not heard this song, go find it and take a listen. It's currently my favorite (closely followed by E.T. by Katy Perry but that's a different story)

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive; and now you want me one more time

Chorus:
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong to ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus]

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

[Chorus x2]

[Insert witty title here]

You have to be able to make fun of yourself of life is not going to be that interesting and you'd probably won't be as happy as those who do. I say that directly in relation to something that happened to my team in intermural softball. So if you know me, you know that I look really athletic but it's a facade. I can't catch, I run funny and I hate working out. Anyway, my team realized this quickly and placed me in right field (for those of you reading this with no concept of softball, right field is where lefties hit the ball and there are fewer lefties. The ball rarely comes over there). I am quite content standing out there watching the game from a really nice position. Well low and behold, the ball comes flying at me. Well in that moment, time slowed down and I thought: wait, the ball does not come out here! What's it doing coming this way. I literally stared as it flew over my head. I didn't even move. The guy standing at second base ran for the ball in the outfield and as he ran by he said, sarcastically: "Oh don't worry, I'll get that. You stay there." I'm pretty sure my team will make fun of me for the rest of my law school career lol

Life unabridged

I have to write something other than my brief or I will lose my mind! I am currently working on a moot court brief for a competition in March...I got one week off from getting done with my last competition before they sent out the packet for my next problem. Yay me...
Anyway, so much has happened in the last month I don't even know where to start. Maybe I'll number them :-)
1. I invited a couple of my friends over for Trini curry. Seriously. I cooked curry. Dad brought roti when he came to visit and it was as though he thought I was going into hibernation. There was no way I would be able to eat it all. Naturally, I thought I should give some of it away, but I quickly realized that I would have to make food in order to give it away. I sent out a little fb invite to people who I didn't think would make me feel too bad if my attempt at curry sucked lol. Then I called mom and got a step-by-step tutorial on how to make curry. Turns out making curry for 10 people us harder than you would think. I had to make the chicken in a different pot to the chick peas and potatoes because I didn't have a pot big enough! Long story short, it was not as good as my mom's or Patraj, but it was not too shabby, if I may say so myself. I was so nervous about it. When I noticed that all the food was gone by the end of the night and all my friends had gone for seconds (some thirds; one even put some aside to take with him to school as lunch the next day) I realized that I didn't do too badly. That was one of the most fun nights I've had at law school. Being able to cook for my friends and then sit around, eating, talking and laughing; I could not have planned it better. Maybe I do have a domestic bone in my body. I'm probably goign to try to do it again when I get back from Christmas break after finals. Any suggestions on what I should make?
2. I went to NYC for thanksgiving. Honestly, that trip has been the high point of my year every year since freshman year of college. All my family in North America (well, not all...most?) fly to NYC and we all stay at my aunt's house which I have never understood how it is able to house all of us. Then my aunt cooks up a storm. It's freaking delicious. Trini styled thanksgiving is where it is at! Where else can you eat turkey and callalloo, apple pie while drinking a Shandy? Yeah, you are jealous you weren't there. Well, as though that was not enough, this thanksgiving was especially awesome; my best friends from college, who now practically live all over the world, were all spending thanksgiving in NYC as well. Writing about it now still makes me so happy I want to cry. I'm not even kidding. I got to spend all day Thursday with my family and my brother from another mother. Then all day Saturday with the best people in the world. (Ok, I look like a freak crying in the library over this, but I miss them more than they could ever understand and I cannot imagine what my life would have been without them). Here I have to pause and say that I am clearly violating my "Never talk about anyone but myself rule" but this story is nothing without the people who I can honestly say made me into the person that I am. I love you guys and can't wait for our next reunion. Ok, got a little sidetracked there. Back to the list.
3. I am going home (to Trinidad) in a few days. Two weeks off from law school is just what the doctor prescribed. I considered taking the next quarter off and figuring my life out, but I think I'm going to tough it out until summertime. I know that I can make it that far. I'll treat it like my runs on the treadmill. Set distances for myself and the closer I get to my goal, the more I want to push myself to get there.
4. I started running again. Because I have a tenancy to make fun of people as they run, I am too self conscious to run outside. Luckily, anatomy has made it so that bad knees run in my family. It's actually in my best interest to run on a treadmill. Anyway, before I would run and see how fast I can get to a particular distance. Now I have decided to see how long I can run at a steady pace. I've gotten to 33 minutes at a run/jog speed and them 5 more slowly decreasing with each minute until I stop. I usually am at about 3.5 (rounding up) by the time I get done. That's pretty good for me seeing as I am super lazy (well, I used to be at least). It's a pretty good feeling getting off the treadmill after running and clearing your head after a long day or at the beginning of your day. I would not trade that feeling for many other things.
5. I am seriously learning to take everything in stride. I've learned the utility of branching out and talking to new people. I've realized that sometimes, it is okay to be alone and that I don't have to be with someone at every moment. If I want to watch a movie, I can go get it and watch it on my own. Finally, I'm trying not to take myself so seriously because life's more fun when your not stressed out all the time.
And there you have it. The major developments in my lief over the past month. Thanks for playing.

L.A. L.A. Baby!

I hopped off the plane at LAX my team and 2 suits in hand :-) Seriously though, I just got back to Waco after an extended weekend in Malibu (Santa Monica mostly though) California. I was representing the school at the National Entertainment Law Competition. To be completely honest, I had one goal: try not to look like an idiot. I guess I achieved that one with the help of my awesome teammates and coach. They made the weekend great. We ate breakfast on the beach, had dinner on ocean avenue, drank wine on rooftops, oh yeah, and competed in the competition when we weren't too busy being cool California people! It was fantastic. We didn't let our perfect surroundings distract us too much as we advanced up to the semifinals and the team took the awards for 2nd best respondent brief and I got third best speaker. Not a bad weekend if you ask me!

random...

I like sweet tea. It's pretty much all I drink. And water. Sweet tea and water.
I hate studying...finals are the worst time of year. I am too easily distracted
I woke up too early this morning (7am!) It was still dark outside. That makes me tired now.
I ate too much for dinner. And I ate alone. Not a fan. Not a fan of movies alone either but I do that all the time so I'm over it.


That's everything that I wanted to post in a FB status update.

Epic Soundtracks!

Sticking to my one status update a day rule: I am listening to Hans Zimmer radio on Pandora and I think it is the best decision I have made in a long time. I have gotten the Dark Knight soundtrack, Pirates of the Caribbean, Bourne Supremacy; Gladiator, Halo and now Avatar. I am pumped!

No complaints; you read my blog by choice!

So I have a rule against updating my facebook status too often. The way I see it, the stupid newsfeed will advertise to everyone that I just had a thought or whatever. If there are too many newsfeed posts about me, I am sure people will get annoyed. It's kind of the way I feel when I notice the same person over and over in my feed. So to prevent any of my friends from getting annoyed with me, I just avoid that whole situation. Good thing about this blog is that I can post whatever random thought I had that day if I have already posted something on facebook. That way it is in the universe and the universe shakes it head at me like I did when the ridiculous thought, or situation or moment occurred. Anywho, to the point of this post. Just now as I was walking down the halls of the law school, I realized that I was wearing my law school fleece. That got me thinking, "OMG! I'm a law student! When did that happen! I'm all grown up, I have to stop being so childish!" Then I chuckled to myself at the fact that this is not the first time the fact that I am in law school has dawned on me. It's kinda one of those things where I still remember most if not all of secondary school and 11 year old me would be as impressed as she would be tickled about the fact that I am kind of a grown up. I guess this is how people who have known me since I was a child feel when they see me now.
Last random thought: the last time I looked at my clock, I noticed it was only 7:24. I did a dance because I thought it was later. It's 8:24 now. No more dancing. Back to work.